4-29-12

So I realize I am easily distracted from this blog lately as unless I have something presing to say I tend not to write. but I did feel the writing urge today so here I am!

So our gender reveal party is one week from today and only 5 people besides myself and Justin have said they are going, now I get that this doesn't accout for all those people that never repond to invites but come anyway, but it still makes me feel a little sad, since a lot of the people that have not rsvp'd had said how exciting it would be. But oh well, whether there are 4 people or 40 this will still be so much fun for me. I really want to hare this with everyone.

So I have made my list of foods that will be there and have all ther ingrdients that wont go bad by next week, and cant wait for next Friday when Bekah will be down and our group baking session will start. Making cupcakes with my friends is alway a blast. Also I will be attempting to make potato salad all by myself that day so it will also be exciting to see how that goes. lol. I'm thinking of making a test run today after work to see if I should bother! I've never been good at the whole potato timing thing, but I'm hoping I have improved in the oh, 4 yrs since the last time I tried. I also created my facebook event for my babyshower, even though I have not invited anyone yet, I just wanted to set it up and have it there so that I could have it the way I wanted and not forget >.< I tend to do that, a lot.

So after we find out our baby's gender next Sateruday *fingers crossed for girl* LOL, we are going to dinner with Bekah and her man Brent, which i always fun since Brent is a riot and well, Bekah is Bekah which means I have never not had a blast with her :D. I just like spending time with my friends and I havent gotten to go out like that since we went to see them in February.


Alright, I am off to try to figure out a food that sounds good besides bacon (BAAAACON!!!) since we are all out and I am not going to the store to buy it, then coming home, waking up Justin and trying to convince him to cook it 9again I CANNOT cook bacon right for the life of me) all beforee trying to make it to work on time. Maybe just a smoothie today, though I am still craving some tuna with pickles, mmm, but alass this is also something I have to go to the store for.... Ok random food rabbit trail done. Have a good day all.

New decissions

Ok, so its been awhile since I've written. I havent really felt the need to write so I haven't. Since I have a feeling that this blog will become public (to people I know) soon, I will not talk about some things that could potentially upset these people, so I don't write the days I fell the need to vent about them ;) JK.

Mostly i have just been busy at work, or tired at home, but since I have decided on a few things recently I thought I should write them down. So I have decided to pay out of pocket to find out gender a few weeks early, which Justin thinks is silly, but since I'm paying he wont argue, lol. Also as soon as I know this ultrasound appt, I will be scheduling the gender reveal party (hopefully the weekend my bff Bekah is in town, since its not fair to reveal when she can't be there, she is Godmother after all) Due to Bekah being in town the first weekend of may, we are shooting for that Saturday, though we may do it Friday afternoon., who knows really. I need to go shopping with my other bff Trian to get supplies for the party. I'm thinking minimal decorations but there will be 2 sides to the room, so I need the It's a Boy sign and blue streamers for one side, and It's a girl and pink streamser on the other side. That way when everyone picks a tea, they can sit on that side of the room. I also need to get some gender myth papers typed up and printed out (and buy a box of pencils) so everyone can keep track of the tally. Then i need to get the box that will hold the reveal balloons wrapped (I may need to find paper for this as well) I think I will also add in this thing that helps avoid gender disappointment I read about (its for my friends not me, lol) and I will make my own list of the good thing about having each gender, and may have a section in the party where I ask everyone else to do the same, then we will read these right before we reveal gender (it will help to get people really confused on what they really want, so they can be excited regarless of the balloon color) I think it will also help me to feel happy regardless of gender because i have become quite torn on what I want.

Ok, so past this, I have decided beyond a doubt that I want to use gdiapers ont he new baby, they are amazing. I found 2 of these in a local baby store with a pack of disposable inserts adn it is amazing, it works so much better than the other cloth diapers I'd been using on Sam. So I went through and did my baby regestry today and made sure to add all of the gdiaper things I will need for baby (in all sizes) I also thought about how a lot of peopel may not want to purchase these as they can be expensive (and I just didnt add clothes and other things people can buy to the list) and was a bit worried they would simply buy me a pack of disposable diapers, so I think in the baby shower invites I will add the regestry info, a note that we have chosen to cloth diaper this baby and then a link to the gdiaper website page that has videos on how easy gdiapers are and why they are better than disposables, including a video that documents the decomp of gdiaper disposable insert vs tradtional disposable diaper (that video only lasts like a min 1/2)  So hopefully peopkle will look and understand why its worth it. plus I wont be spending 120 a month on disposable diapers, ugg. and if they help us purchase the gdiapers it will make the whole diapering experience more affordable all the way around.

So I think today is the day that I will add my blog to one of my groups on babycenter. that way I can at least share it with someone, since i know no one has read it so far.

Hello 2nd trimester

So I have made it 1/3 of the way through already, OMG! I am shocked, it is crazy how fast it seems to be going so far. I am just hoping that I can eat soon! I mean REALLY eat, not just nibbles here and there but full on NOM NOM, lol. I still have not gained any weight, I am actually still down 5 lbs. But Oh well.

So non pregnancy related I am reading the Hunger Games trilogy, I get so into them that I can't put it down and end up staying up all night to finish the book, its happened with both of the ones I have read so far. I am going to the store to buy the 3rd one today, I got the 1st 2 on nook since I was without car at the time and really wanted to read them.

OMG I am so hungry right now, and I just ate some toast and sliced apples, maybe i can find more to eat... I wonder what will sound good today, maybe some cheese with pickles on wheat thins.... Oooh Or I can make a muffalatta (sp?) mmmm, ok, Im really hungry now. LOL.

ok, so my car is offically fixed! I ran errnds with it today but somehow forgot about half of them so i went home to take a nap instead, ugg. So more things to do tomorrow, like put away all of my groceries >.< I put away everything that needed to stay cold. Also Sam broke my glasses so i have to see if my ins will cover repair or not. I hope so..
So while I was out today I decided to get me some fat pants, this is what I am calling maternity jeans right now. So I go to the baby store in our rival town, cuz I really like the owner, and grab some pants, and since I'm feeling kinda bored i wander the store looking at stuff, and find a super cute carseat that is grey plaid and amazing for only 27, that is a steal so I get it! Then I go to luch with a girlfriend and on my way home I decide to stop by the other baby store, the one in my town and find a bunch of swings that fold up, this si ver important to me since the swing I had for my son folded and could travel, this is a must have for me. There were a bunch of swings there and i was torn, I could have gone for the exact one I had before for 19, or a bright colored jungle animal theme for 22, or a soft cream with some colored swirls for 25, i picked the cream since it was the most neutral and so soft. I'm hoping I do not regret my early buys, I dont think I will but you never know. I'm just glad I was able to get both for under 60.

So after we get home Sam and I start watching cartoons and we fall asleep I wake up at 8 and put him to bed and then at 1030 my dad hears him having nightmares and comes to get me, which is crazy cuz  wake up from a dead sleep if he so much as wimpers, but I didnt hear him while completely awake. So I go in and see him, and he sorta wakes up and when I ask him about his dream he tells me that he did not have a bad dream, but he does want me to read him a book, that kid is so funny. I read him his story anf he jsut snuggles his blankie, smiles and goes back to sleep. Ahh, its moments like these when I remember why being a mom is the best thing in the whole world. LOL. Alright Im gonna try to sleep again now, peace.

Not much to say today. I worked, had my dad's truck battery die, twice. Then since I was super hungry I went to the AMAZING Medateranian Sandwich place, lol its amazing that we even have one since we are such a small town. I gto a huge sandwich and ate the whole thing then took a nap. YEAH, I have such an exciting life ;) but you know, making a whole nother person is tiring work right.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

So my day has gone to hell in a hand basket. Yup, nearly fainted at work, had to admit to being prego and got lectured for not saying anything sooner. Joy, then I go, clean out my old car, that has a bum engine (with a hole in it) and put it all in my new car, go through all the hassle of paperwork, plates, tiltes, BAH! Then make it to my doc appt, to be told Sorry docs in surgery, but you can see her nurse, no big, I like her nurse. So while waiting Sam wakes up, cuz he konked out on the way there and says mama I gotta pee, so I roll him into the bathroom (in his stroller) and pull him out, to find that he is sitting in a puddle of pee, oh joy. His pants are soaked, his stoller has a puddle and I have to get back out there to wait for my name to be called! I strip him, tell him to pee more and start mopping with paper towels, then I put a THICK and I mean THICk stack over where the wet spot is/was (less wet by tons) put Sam back in the stoller and cover him with my coat, tell him he has Got to stay still or everyone will see his wee wee, and head back out, just in time to hear my name called by the nurse. See her everything is fine, got my perscription for anti nausea meds, leave and puke in the parking lot. Oops.

I then call my friend, who does not anwser, so I call her sister, because by God someone is going to see my shiney new car today, go get my other frind, find out first friend is at 3rd friends house, are you confused yet? Cuz Im getting there, take 2nd friend to see the other two and the 3rd ones 3 kids. (by this time I rememember that there is a box of clothes in my trunk for Sam that I just kept forgetting to take upstairs (THANK YOU GOD) and put pants on Sam when we get to our final stop. Sam then acts like a maniac, which is fine at first 3 yr olds tend to run through the house together giggling, no big, then he steals toys away, then he gets into things, then they play tummy doc (I'm thinking they were doing the doppler like at ,my appt, but they decide friends oldest needs to have something taken out of her tummy and go for a knife, A KNIFE! what in the work are these kids thinking?! Where did this come from?! So I lecture them this is bad, Sam you know better than to play with knives, ect, I am getting tired, and nauseous, and decide to take Sam home, half way there the check engine light come on on my car and I have to limp home, when I get there it kinda smells like plasic is burning, WONDERFUL! So now I'm back with my dad's truck while he tries to figure out my car, and I gotta say he had BETTER do that before he goes driving it around for his work, cuz I'll kill him, I will, prego hormones are rampaging angry right now and if he blows my new cars motor I'm going homocidal. however you spell it. Sigh. Ok rant done. I think...

Now I am off to bed and so glad that I have 4 cloth diapers for Sam because I forgot to throw his other ones in the dryer. I have the 4th and unused one waiting for him to sleep in while the others rewash and dry tonight. Im just glad my super bad day is almost over, only thing left now is to clean the tub, which I threw up in while peeing the other night, it was full of my bath water as I had just climed out of the tub. So I thought it would drain with the water, i was wrong, I think that was a chocolate doughnut I ate....

To tell or not to tell

Ok, so most people know, however my new job does not. I applied before I got pregnant but by the time the whole process was through I was knocked up. (sounds like a bad movie) Any way, due to a severe family history of miscarriage I am hestent to tell them and get them all worked up about it only to tell them it was all for not, so do I tell them? When DO I tell them? I mean I will have to tell them sometime, hello. Since I recently hit the worst part of pregnancy, which is late first trimester early second when I start fainting. gotta love it. It is from lack of proper nutrition, which lets face it is impossible when you are throwing up EVERYTHING you consume, also I am (hopefully) at the tail end of my morning sickness, so when I say, "I have to use the restroom" Im really saying "I have to yack" but I got a warning today about my excessive use of the rest room, yup, only Im not really peeing but I cant tell them THAT either. So tomorrow is my next appt at 12 wks WOO! So I should be in the clear after this one to tell them, IF I choose to, at this point I feel dishonest NOT telling them, and I can only excuse it with my worry over miscarriage for so long. Thus my dilemma, Do I tell them now or wait? If I wait, how long should I wait? I think I'll ask my doc tomorrow, she seems smart (LOL, dont mind my extreme sarcasim tonight, I'm beat) and hopefully she will know what I should do, if not, Ill take aside the person in charge explain my dilemma, SHE needs to know, but NO ONE else does. Are women even biologically able to keep secrets? Im serious, I found out I was prego and called my best friend, I told her before I even told my boyfriend, I don't think he minds but who knows.

Alright, enough dilemma-ing for one night, Im gonna try to fall asleep before I yack again (this is my new favorite term if you cannot tell) and hope that I feel better in the morning ( I seem to be suffering from evening sickness now more than anything.

Good night cyber space, since I know no one is reading this, lol.